ce n'est pas la vie

It's the holidays.

I should be happy and wanting be merry.

Truth is, I don't.

When things in life go wrong, you don't really care about the holidays or how everyone's seems to be so 'I love my family and friends'. You just want to scream at the world for being so stupid and naive.

faith ≠ rational

"I had no explanation for Laura. I don't think there is an explanation. My belief in Jesus did not seem rational or scientific, and yet there was nothing I could do to separate myself from this belief. I think Laura was looking for something rational, because she believed that all things that were true were rational. But that isn't the case. Love, for example, is a true emotion, but it is not rational. What I mean is, people actually feel it. I have been in love, plenty people have been in love, yet love cannot be proved scientifically. Neither can beauty. Light cannot be proved scientifically, and yet we all believe in light and by light see all things. There are plenty of things that are true that don't make sense. I think one of the problems that Laura was having was that she wanted God to make sense. He doesn't. He will make no more sense to me than I will make sense to an ant."

Donald Miller, Blue Like Jazz

my mood for today = crap

Maybe I'm pre-pmsing. Maybe I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Whatever it is, it's keeping me from seeing the brighter side of things...and I don't really seem to mind.

estoy inferma :[

Je pense que j'ai "un infection de sinus". Je n'en sais pas le mot correcte. Aussi, je n'en sais pas porquoi j'ai écrit le titre en espagnol et puis écrit le blog, en français. Je suis bizarre.

J'écrira encore plus tard quand je vais mieux.

O.I.L. once again

Well, I'm off to O.I.L. starting from tomorrow and won't be back until possibly Sunday. Till then cyberspace!

I shall definitely be updating when I get back! :]

frustrated

I've just been hit with a pang of frustration.

I want my kids, the kids I teach on Sundays as well as the girls that look up to me at church, to so deeply know God and experience the love and grace that I've experienced so far with my relationship with Him. The only problem is: the first group of kids is too young to understand anything and the second group may just be so caught up in their own miseries that they fail to see Christ, who may be right at the doorstep of their hearts.

That they might fall in love with Him, too, someday and really know His sufficient love for us.

Maybe this is the feeling that the youth group pastor's wife was talking about.

happy new year's everyone!

To 2010:

The old has gone and the new has come.

Let the games begin.