i am one stubborn mess

I really need to calm myself down these days. I feel so ansy and nervous and uncomfortable inside. Maybe it's because I don't pray as much as I used to before. Praying always helps me calm down and I've just found myself lacking in it these past couple weeks. My heart wants to reach out to Him but my body says no. Man, I am very stubborn. All the more reason why I need more Jesus in my life.

P.S. I really miss O.I.L. A lot.

Anyways, there's a song that's been on my mind lately...well sort of. I don't know, it just gets to me every time I listen to it. Here it is.

Starfield - Reign In Us

[V1] You thought of us before the world began to breathe
You knew our names before we came to be
You saw the very day we'd fall away from you
And how desperately we need to be redeemed

[Pre-C] Lord Jesus
Come lead us
We're desperate for your touch

[C] Oh Great and Mighty One
With one desire we come
That You would reign, that You would reign in us
We're offering up our lives
A living sacrifice
That You would reign, that You would reign in us

[v2] Spirit of the living God fall fresh again
Come search our hearts and purify our lives
We need Your perfect love, we need Your discipline
We're lost unless You guide us with Your light

[Pre-C] Lord Jesus
Come lead us
We're desperate for Your touch

[C] Oh Great and Mighty One
With one desire we come
That You would reign, that You would reign in us
We're offering up our lives
A living sacrifice
That You would reign, that You would reign in us

[B1] We cry out, for Your life to revive us, cry out
For Your love to define us, cry out
For Your mercy to keep us
Blameless until You return

[C] Oh Great and Mighty One
With one desire we come
That You would reign, that You would reign in us
We're offering up our lives
A living sacrifice
That You would reign, that You would reign in us

[B2] So reign, please reign in us
Come purify our hearts
We need Your touch
Come cleanse us like a flood
And set us out
So the world may know You reign, You reign in us